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Chapter 1 Early Years 1 Chapter 2 My Brothers 11 Chapter 3 Todd's Illness 16 Chapter 4 Fifth Grade 19 Chapter 5 Norm / Marriage 24 Chapter 6 Norm / Reflections 28 Chapter 7 Todd / Reflections 31 Chapter 8 Sixth Grade 33 Chapter 9 Discovery of Tumor 38 Chapter 10 Preparation and Surgery 49 Chapter 11 Diagnosis and Recovery 53 Chapter 12 Chemotherapy 70 Chapter 13 Year at Home and Diary 87 Chapter 14 Summer 1976 111 Chapter 15 Return to School 114 Chapter 16 Divorce 119 Chapter 17 Ninth Grade 127 Chapter 18 Summer 1977 133 Chapter 19 Tenth Grade 137 Chapter 20 Eleventh Grade 140 Chapter 21 Twelfth Grade 160 Chapter 22 Summer 1980 167 - Chapter 23 Black Hawk College 175 Essays: Views on Choice 181 Views on Awareness 183 - Chapter 24 Interlude 187 - Chapter 25 Return of Cancer 195 Essays: Suffering 212 Quality in Life 213 Bargaining and Prayer 214 - Chapter 26 Categories of Acceptance 216 Chapter 27 Frustrations 225 Chapter 28 Christmas 1981 230 Chapter 29 Self Imposed Barriers 232 Chapter 30 Autumn at Augustana 236 Chapter 31 Depression 243 Chapter 32 Basic Day 246 Chapter 33 Treatment / Hoax 251 Chapter 34 Journey to Greece 254 Chapter 35 In Limbo 263 Chapter 36 Reflections 267 Chapter 37 Zenith of Grief 276 Chapter 38 Personal Belief 284 Chapter 39 Reminiscence 286 Chapter 40 God, My View 288 Chapter 41 Continuum 291
DEATH
Last Revised August 5, 2011
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A candid memoir that opens with the ordinary rhythm of childhood—schoolyard games, sibling bonds, and early teenage hopes—before a sudden diagnosis shatters the familiar. At twelve, the author faces a rare stomach cancer, prompting a grueling series of treatments at a leading research clinic. The narrative captures the stark contrast between hospital corridors and the fleeting joys of teenage life, from first loves to the search for a normal high‑school experience.
Through a series of journal‑like entries, she reflects on the emotional landscape of illness: anger, acceptance, humor, and moments of unexpected beauty. Her voice remains strikingly honest as she navigates chemotherapy, the return to school with a wig, and the pursuit of education despite physical decline. The early chapters offer a poignant glimpse into how she strives to find meaning each day, offering listeners a resonant portrait of resilience and the quest for purpose amid uncertainty.
Full title
Through These Eyes The courageous struggle to find meaning in a life stressed with cancer The courageous struggle to find meaning in a life stressed with cancer
Language
en
Duration
~17 hours (980K characters)
Publisher of text edition
Project Gutenberg
Release date
2011-08-13
Rights
Public domain in the USA.

1961–1986
A young memoirist whose only known book grew out of years of living with cancer, she wrote with unusual honesty about pain, hope, and the search for meaning. Her story has endured because it feels intimate, brave, and deeply human.
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